Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Lots of alone time...

The months of June and July has a total of 61 days and I am going to be on my own for 29 of those days. My husband has a bunch of workshops and conferences to go to and I will be stuck at home. Thankfully I may be working at that time so I will not be completely devoided of all human interaction which does include the internet and telephones. The thing is, I don't mind being on my own. Sometimes I even enjoy it. It is the idea that my husband is not here, and no amount of time with other people can make up for that. It just does not feel right when he is gone. I have this permanent, nagging feeling over me the entire time cause, well, he is my whole life. He is the one person who finishes my sentences, actually know what I truly mean when I say something (cause strangely, not many people here really grasp the idea of sarcasm, which is my second, sometimes first, language lol). We also know exactly what the other is thinking with just one word or look. So I am not so keen on missing that for an entire 29 days.

I finally finished reading Marley and me yesterday and I think I started crying at least for the entire last 2 chapters. I don't know if I will even last through the movie! It was sad because whatever people say, an animal are as much part of the family as any human relative. A dog is not just a dog, and that goes for a rat as well. I don't even want to think of losing one of my ratties, as they are my company during the day. Yesterday in a book shop I saw the sweetest picture ever. A little rat paw resting on a human finger with the caption TRUST. Only yesterday morning my shy little girl Pan came up to me on the bed and did the exact same thing. She just looked at me as if saying "Ok fine I trust you!" Just after that she did hop away like a demented bunnie but she came back every time I called her. What can be more nicer in life than to gain the trust of a rat? It feels easy with dogs, I'm drawn to them and they are drawn to me. Even more difficult ones. One time I was at a friend's house when his Boston Terrier came up to me. She was usually very jealous of women but she jumped right onto my lap and stayed there the rest of the evening. I can't wait to have a dog again...

We finally went to watch Star Trek last night. I have always been more of a Star Wars fan but I really enjoyed this movie. The only problem is I kept seeing Spock as Sylar, and was waiting for him to steal people's powers hehe.

3 comments:

Dizzy Vizzy said...

Marley & Me made me bawl - pets really do spend most of their lives waiting for us to come home!!

Hang in there with your hubby being away - when he gets back it will be a sweet reunion!!

Tails said...

Aw shame man, 29 days is a long time to be away from someone you love, so dont feel wrong in missing him. And no, other people just dont fill the gap your partner leaves in your heart when he's gone, also understandable (otherwise you would have married your friends by now ;P)

I havent seen Marley and Me nor read the book, but its definately on my list of books now :)

And ratty-trust...man, no feeling compares! I'm with you 110% on that one!! *happy sigh*

PixieDust said...

Luckily he is not going to be away for 29 days directly following each other! Basically it's, week by week, 3 days, then 5, then 2 weeks at home, then 2 weeks away, a day or two at home and finally another week away. Ugh...